Tuesday, August 30, 2011
We brought her home that night with some pain meds and special food and gave her lots of cuddles. The next morning we could see she had declined even more. Her tummy had distended and even though she wanted so much to play, she just couldn't. We knew it was time. I couldn't stand the thought of our sweet puppy in pain. My husband and daughter were there with me. We comforted and petted her as the light left her eyes and now the world just isn't as bright and beautiful without her in it.
I didn't realize how much of my days were centered around Pebbles. She was always just an arms length away. I'm so used to reaching out to touch her and now she isn't there. We had her in our family for nine years and were completely unprepared to lose her so soon. I'm trying to stay busy and get used to a new routine that doesn't have Pebbles in it. Yesterday, when I was heading outside to feed the fish in the pond, I called her to come with me. I'll have to get used to doing these things without her now, but it's going to take some time.
I've been distracting myself with TV and doing some drawing, but when I sit and try to work on a card, I just start thinking of Pebbles and can't seem to concentrate. I'm sure I'll be able to get back to it soon, but I just wanted to explain why I may be absent for a bit. I'll be back soon. Thanks for understanding.